“I like feeling small,” he told me. “Nature has always made me feel small.”
He described the sense of wonder that feeling gave him.
“Having something bigger than the individual – I don’t care if you call it God, or nature, or something else – gives me focus because it reminds me that the time we have to impact others is fleeting.”
Now that he lived in a city, he intentionally looked for wonder in places he wouldn’t normally see it. “Information about the world is overwhelming. It always has an argumentative tinge. I try to have compassion for people I know and people I don’t know. I feel small and comforted among humanity.”
Listener Poet Beck Klassen
Cambia Sojourns Scholars
February 2022
Feeling Small
Trees make themselves known;
a fresh, powerful presence.
I feel small
in the forest around me.
Nature freely emanates
the inalienable gifts
of insignificance
(individual)
and significance
(collective).
Society makes itself known;
an overwhelming entanglement
of blame.
I carve out a space for myself
to feel small
in the humanity around me.
My small space of focus
Reveals life
(fleeting)
and relationality
(eternal).
“I wonder if these medical professionals, in caring for people who face such insurmountable odds, walk around all the time carrying this weight I’m hauling now.”
He had been trying to cope with the grief ever since and was on a quest for soul-searching and meaning-making.
She spoke about the ways this traumatic event shaped who she is today: a person with an “unshakeable peace” born of deep faith,
She wanted to help people feel comfortable and transform the shame around colon issues. "I want to talk about things that matter, the things people don't want to discuss.
When we met, she was coming off a stretch of nine 14-hour shifts. She was tired but in good spirits.
She reflected on how her resilience was born from moments of shared mirth amid life's trying chapters.
“Life is complex and dirty, but digging in is important to me,” she said. “Maybe if more of us understood history, we could understand each other better.”
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
Every day, I try to see through the patient lens, and I ask: what can we do to change this broken system?
She was very proud of her daughter and has hopes for “a bright future that’s as pain free as possible”
“I’m trying to focus on doing little things to make people feel better during everything that’s going on in the world,” she told me.
“It’s hard to see others struggle,” she said. “How can I help with their struggle without struggling myself?”
"I'd tell her it's OK to be loud...it's OK to challenge and to bring all of you into these spaces where no one looks like you..."
“I'm continuously questioning: did I do it right?" she said. "I’ve always done a good amount of second-guessing, but I’m re-learning how to show up differently.”
“It’s weird,” she said. “This is one of the biggest accomplishments of my life, but it doesn’t feel like it.”
"It changed me; It changed the way I look at life," said this woman about her profound experience during her pregnancy.
“It’s been more challenging than normal lately,” she said. “I’m only one person. It's a struggle for me to say no, but I can’t do everything that’s being asked of me right now.”
"I've been processing how to make the most of the small amount of life we have to live," said this physician.
"I've been processing how to make the most of the small amount of life we have to live," said this physician.