For this patient, peace is the most important hope for her life, for it to "come into fruition."
Recently, she found her peace disturbed at a lunch with two longtime friends, one of whom has been her friend for nearly sixty years. This patient tells me she suddenly found herself in a hostile environment, all because she had arrived a few minutes late.
While she and her friends eventually prayed over the situation to calm the tension, she was left with doubt and uneasiness about her connection with these two people. For many years, this patient has avoided confrontation in pursuit of peace.
She recently realized she needed inner assertiveness to keep genuine peace, especially within herself. Words of art and faith also bring her peace. She tells me how she keeps a journal and how reading is a place of comfort. She even writes poetry herself. Ultimately, this wish for peace is more like a prayer. Describing herself as a spiritual person, she asked God to bring peace in her life with her family and especially her friends.
Listener Poet Joseph Jablonski
Inova Schar Cancer Institute
August 2024
Prayer for Peace
Hurt people hurt people’s
Prayerful hands unable to hold,
I never wanted to be bold
But I realized
A peace passive isn’t
A spirit-moving thing.
I am more than a shell,
To me there is more to tell,
So I scrambled the words
Waiting in my soul,
War a weary thing,
A gamble at best believing conquest
Can force belief upon us
But I a lamb, turning cheeks,
Help you see, help you be.
I can speak strongly too,
Reading rooms and words carefully,
So I balance this,
Bluntness in thoughtfulness,
A patience to persist
In the offense.
And become a medicine of empathetic
Awareness making things different,
We cannot go back not a time for that,
How we say
Is the way
I now pray
No matter the result, the intention
I give to the Lord in pleas
Is for the drama to cease.
“I always believe, no matter what the doctor says, that I will be cured,” she says as her sister sits next to her.
“I wonder if these medical professionals, in caring for people who face such insurmountable odds, walk around all the time carrying this weight I’m hauling now.”
He had been trying to cope with the grief ever since and was on a quest for soul-searching and meaning-making.
She spoke about the ways this traumatic event shaped who she is today: a person with an “unshakeable peace” born of deep faith,
She wanted to help people feel comfortable and transform the shame around colon issues. "I want to talk about things that matter, the things people don't want to discuss.
When we met, she was coming off a stretch of nine 14-hour shifts. She was tired but in good spirits.
She reflected on how her resilience was born from moments of shared mirth amid life's trying chapters.
“Life is complex and dirty, but digging in is important to me,” she said. “Maybe if more of us understood history, we could understand each other better.”
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
Every day, I try to see through the patient lens, and I ask: what can we do to change this broken system?
She was very proud of her daughter and has hopes for “a bright future that’s as pain free as possible”
“I’m trying to focus on doing little things to make people feel better during everything that’s going on in the world,” she told me.
“It’s hard to see others struggle,” she said. “How can I help with their struggle without struggling myself?”
"I'd tell her it's OK to be loud...it's OK to challenge and to bring all of you into these spaces where no one looks like you..."
“I'm continuously questioning: did I do it right?" she said. "I’ve always done a good amount of second-guessing, but I’m re-learning how to show up differently.”
“It’s weird,” she said. “This is one of the biggest accomplishments of my life, but it doesn’t feel like it.”
"It changed me; It changed the way I look at life," said this woman about her profound experience during her pregnancy.
“It’s been more challenging than normal lately,” she said. “I’m only one person. It's a struggle for me to say no, but I can’t do everything that’s being asked of me right now.”
"I've been processing how to make the most of the small amount of life we have to live," said this physician.